Hello all, it has been a while since I last posted a blog, please forgive me. I just been trying to wrap my head around, what was this entire blogging going to be? What was it I wanted to talk about? What can I do to help people?
Well DUH!! SHARE MY STORY, and give hope to people! Goodness, I tell ya, sometimes the Lord needs to smack me upside the head!! And thankfully, He does, in a loving kind manor of course.
I don't know how many of all y 'all have heard my story, but in case you don't know, I identified as a man, a transgender man for over 30 years, I didn't call it trans then, I just said I was a man. We really never heard or talked about transgender then, in my day, boy, it must have been in the late 70's when I was told I had a "gender dysphoria" indeed. WHAT I AHAD WAS A BROKEN SOUL, who needed Jesus to restore and repair her.
So that is how it was, and so, began a life of craziness. BUT GOD!!! He has a way of bustin' in, and shakin' it all up. YIPPIE
This blog, will probably end up being my book, which I struggle to discipline myself to do, so here we go.
I grew up on the east side of St. Paul Minnesota. I am the youngest of 7 children, yep, I'm a 7 baby!!!! I like numbers. I had 2 brothers, and 4 sisters, I lost one brother to a heart attack complication several years ago, who, thankfully was lead to the Lord by one of my sisters Trudy. He did so shortly before he passed away, very grateful for that.
My oldest brother Joe, is a Christian, who, he and his lovely wife Linda, had been praying for me for 35 years!!!! " OK, you're the ones who did this!!!" So thankful, little did any of us know what that would result in.
It's true I am a survivor of childhood trauma, sexual abuse. Science says "To every action, is a reaction." Gee, that wasn't anywhere in the Bible was it?! Of course it is, not in so many words, but one thing I know is true about God, well two actually worth mentioning is A. God cannot lie, and B. God cannot violate our will, and so, the people who abused me, made their choices, (the action) which is why it is so important to ask God to get our desires in line with His will. I ended up with what is known as a disassociation disorder, (THE REACTION) which are disorders that involve experiencing a disconnection and lack of continuity between thoughts, memories, surroundings, actions and identity. People with disassociate disorders escape reality in ways that are involuntary and unhealthy and cause problems with functioning in everyday life.
I WAS DISCONNCTED!!!! How wonderful of our God, to have built this in, knowing that man would make poor and hurtful choices, causing suffering onto others.
And, this is why I say, I did not choose to be trans or broken, it chose me. We all at some lever, have had some sort of trauma, no matter if you think it's a MAJOR trauma, or a “minor” trauma, when experiencing trauma, it has an affect on us, and it is usually results in a disconnect, from other's, from ourselves, and even God.
So, I think this blog, will be very fun, now that I know I the freedom to write it how I write, hold on, cuz its gonna be fun, I'm all over the place sometimes, but if you follow along, we can have lots of fun, getting to know the Lord Jesus. Bless you
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